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So I'm in an absolutely horrid mood right now.  I'm under a lot of stress to pick up my diploma because my mother wants proof that I graduated.  We just had a massive fight which has left me in literally in tears, and I don't cry often, its very difficult to make me cry.  She's decided to take my car as well.  This means I can't go to the barn and I either have to hitch a ride or somehow manage to figure out how to get a bus pass.  I'm also begging my old laptop to stay alive long enough for me to save some documents in a format that my new laptop can actually read which is why there has been a delay in uploading those chapters I've promised you.

Anywho my mom also went on about how much she and my dad have been supporting me and I just really wanted to scream at her how they don't have to support me so much in some area's when the main area I really need support is with my writing and getting published.  I am serious whenever I thank people for +fav  or collecting one of my stories because it really does mean a lot to me.  Al the support that I've gotten from friends and absolute strangers on here is what drives me to continue.  I know I can make money writing, and I am aiming to reach that goal, but my mom is constantly telling me to go do something else.  She keeps telling me to look at others schools and figure out what I want to go into next, but I honestly don't know what I want to do next, I really dont.  The only thing I really know is that I can write, and I love it.  I know this passion and talent can get me somewhere, but as hard as I keep trying, I keep finding myself hitting a brick wall when it comes to my family.  All of them are have majors that they've gotten a degree in and so they expect me to continue on with that.  I know our whole family is under a lot of stress right now since my brother needs a kidney transplant, and I know it's especially affecting my mom, but when she gets stressed I always feel like she just uses me as her metaphorical punching bag by trying to lessen her own stress by adding more to mine.  I just begin to feel like she thinks I've regressed to being 11 instead of 21.  I just don't know what to do what now.  I'll mostly be writing just to calm myself down, but I'm just so lost right now.

I'm sorry about how long this rant has gone on, but I just really needed to get this off my chest. Thank you for reading if you have.
  • Mood: Agony
So I'm in an absolutely horrid mood right now.  I'm under a lot of stress to pick up my diploma because my mother wants proof that I graduated.  We just had a massive fight which has left me in literally in tears, and I don't cry often, its very difficult to make me cry.  She's decided to take my car as well.  This means I can't go to the barn and I either have to hitch a ride or somehow manage to figure out how to get a bus pass.  I'm also begging my old laptop to stay alive long enough for me to save some documents in a format that my new laptop can actually read which is why there has been a delay in uploading those chapters I've promised you.

Anywho my mom also went on about how much she and my dad have been supporting me and I just really wanted to scream at her how they don't have to support me so much in some area's when the main area I really need support is with my writing and getting published.  I am serious whenever I thank people for +fav  or collecting one of my stories because it really does mean a lot to me.  Al the support that I've gotten from friends and absolute strangers on here is what drives me to continue.  I know I can make money writing, and I am aiming to reach that goal, but my mom is constantly telling me to go do something else.  She keeps telling me to look at others schools and figure out what I want to go into next, but I honestly don't know what I want to do next, I really dont.  The only thing I really know is that I can write, and I love it.  I know this passion and talent can get me somewhere, but as hard as I keep trying, I keep finding myself hitting a brick wall when it comes to my family.  All of them are have majors that they've gotten a degree in and so they expect me to continue on with that.  I know our whole family is under a lot of stress right now since my brother needs a kidney transplant, and I know it's especially affecting my mom, but when she gets stressed I always feel like she just uses me as her metaphorical punching bag by trying to lessen her own stress by adding more to mine.  I just begin to feel like she thinks I've regressed to being 11 instead of 21.  I just don't know what to do what now.  I'll mostly be writing just to calm myself down, but I'm just so lost right now.

I'm sorry about how long this rant has gone on, but I just really needed to get this off my chest. Thank you for reading if you have.
  • Mood: Agony

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cricketumpire Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for being quick enough to fave the white horse in "This ain't a fairytale..."

Hope you've already caught up with your soulmate   horse...    
                         Glad you liked it Liliinthia  - please do keep on watching???
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hjordang Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Nice gallery!!Clap 
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lilinthia Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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DangerKhoa Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2014
Thanks for adding it to fav!
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Pixx-73 Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the fav. Thanks for everything! Have a nice day.
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vainia Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch, it's greatly appreciated! ^o^/ <3<3<3
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ViperiumPrime Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the favorite!
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DragonThemes Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much for the :+fav::iconilikeitplz:
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DanTherrien101 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2014  Student Interface Designer
Thanks for the fav!! :)
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InkQueenPilus Featured By Owner May 28, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! Rainbrony okie  Here's a burrito~ Burrito Emoticon
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